Today I felt brave

Today I felt brave….

I slept in late and gave my body some much needed rest. I took care of me, instead of putting my needs on the back burner. When I left my house, I didn’t know where I was headed. I just knew depression lives in your comfort zone, and I needed to get out of here.

Today I felt brave….

I parked my car and just began to walk. I found myself in an art gallery. I spoke with the artist and left with an understanding of what art really means to him, and what it really means to me. I stumbled across a few antique shops. Found a lot of nice things, even a few creepy things.

Today I felt brave….

I went to this park, but before I could get there I was stopped by a woman. Straight away she asked me for some change. I gave her a few dollars. She kept touching my arm as she spoke. She shared with me her current struggles and her previous plight with domestic violence. I don’t think she heard me when I said “I know what that’s like”. But I think she heard me when I said “God’s got it, you’ll be alright.” When she hugged me too long and a little too tight, my flesh was afraid. But God whispered “its okay, it’s alright.”

Today I felt brave....

I sat by the water, watched  butterflies play fight. I watched a crane stalk his prey in the shallow waters. I watched men wade in waist deep waters casting out their nets as they fished. The sun hugged me tight and it's rays kissed my shoulders.

Today I felt brave….

I didn’t allow my singleness, the fact that I would be out there alone, the depression that’s chasing me or my financial situation rob me from the beauty of this day.

Today I felt brave….

I wasn’t worried about “stranger danger”. I talked and laughed with people I’ve never seen, and may never see again.

Today I felt brave…

I didn’t allow the weight of the world weigh me down.

Today I felt brave….

I refused to just exist like I usually do, but today I lived.

Today I felt brave….

I remembered Joshua 1:9

“Have not I commanded thee? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed. For the Lord thy God is with thee whitersoever thou goest.”

Today I felt brave….

 Because I am.

I wrote this mainly because this is what I did today, but also because for me it is so easy to get caught up in the day to day routine.  I get wrapped up in the hustle of bustle of working, and being a mom that  sometimes it’s just easy to just stay where I am mentally and emotionally. It takes courage and bravery to break down the barrier of being kept where you are and to just do what you want to do. What did you do today, that made you feel brave?

If you love someone tell them.

I love you

Destaynee